It's just this way, right now

I love Orange.
I love Paper.
I love ink & paint & glue & sand & things that look messed up.
I like silly creatures, bright colors, and blood & guts.
I’m drawn to texture, layers, repetition, posters, music & red wine.
I like to see something new every time I look at a painting.
I like how color and texture interact to create a mood, a feeling.
I like how all these things can change over time.
I like how the vein on my forehead is prominent. I do.

That's been the bio on my profile for... as long as I remember having a profile, I think it started with Myspace.

I was thinking of re-writing it but as I read it, it all still rings true. I don't know where I could take one line out to make it more succinct. It still is, right now.

But, how have all these things changed over time? And do I really like that things can change over time? I will stop editing as much as possible here because otherwise I'll never get through this and I much more enjoy the act of writing everything that flows through my head. When I really get thinking

I do like that "all these things CAN change over time". The whole thinking about it makes me uneasy; the planning for the completion of a change, getting up the courage to start, the point you want to know when that change is going to be through, until the point where you automatically stop thinking about it all the time. The journey of change seems so long, but it is really only right now. Sometimes you don't even know the change is happening - which depending on how you look at it, can be either good or bad, but I associate it more with bad, being unaware & not ready. I'd like to be more aware of changes in the future, open to them, orchestrate them, write them out as I want them written - not just stare blindly as they happen around me.

"for there is nothing either good or bad, but thinking makes it so". - Shakespeare

As for now, I don't think I'll change my bio - keep it simple, the things I enjoy in my life without getting into what I've done & what I want to do - since the change seems to come in waves, I'll leave this as a constant. A constant is a comfort, as is knowing that it's just this way, right now.

Change. You can re-write your life.